I Have aged 20 years as my child wanders out of Gym child care...

So, me being the sporty mama that I am actually thought I could burn some fat from this old behind of mine yesterday. We havea fairly new rec center and my 11 year old loves to go to their water area. I on the other hand, would not be caught DEAD or alive in a suit so I thought I would use this opportunity to work out while 11 y.o. played in the water adn the 3 y.o utilized teh paid babysitting.
I went in and paid my fee to get in, then another fee for the babysitting. I am doing good , working up a sweat and at th 1/2 hour mark decided to jsut go peek and make sure the 3 Y.O was doing ok, There were a lot of kids his age but I was concerned about the infants in there and wanted to amek sure he was not too rambunctious. he has never had child care other than family.I peek in and it is very calm and serene. 1 worker rocking a baby the other doing some paperwork.The one doing the paperwork turns around and I smile. She smiles then starts looking around the room, her smile fades as she starts looking behind counters and inside toyboxes. She comes to me frantically" I dont know where he is, I dont know where your son is" . I was astonished at first. This room was not a large room by far and really no way a child could get out of your sight in this room. She says' He was jsut so quiet and then it got really hectic for a minute as there were multiple parents picking up kids and then a little girl vomited, I am so sorry this has never happened before" , Me still in a daze turn and look at the floors of rooms and the multitude of people and take off at a sprint.After searching fora good 10 minutes, I glance over where the rock climbing wall is anad there is a tube that runs from the top floor of the building to the ground floor. I see lots of tall people, knees and legs and then a short set of legs parts through. I run to him and look him over, unsure of how long he has been on his own in this place and start asking questions. Luckily he was unhurt and aside from a few rides on the elevator and who knows what else he was just fine.I on the other hand need some valium and a stiff drink. After the fact I found out this is the same place that no more than 6 months ago a 7 year old was assaulted in the mens restrooms by another man and chills ran down my spine. I guess this was my sign from the man above that I am not meant to work out or maybe that I need to be aware more or something but believe me not, I will never leave my child in the care of anyone but family again. I am seriously considering opting our of School LOL. If I live long enough to make that decision.
When I found out I was pregnant at 39 with this guy, I did not think ahead to all of those moments that take your breath away , Literally , and Now wonder if My heart will hold out for the next 16 years! I havent even decided what sort of action to take today. I do know that something needs to be said/done but I am trying to stay level-headed. This facility is run by the county and the employees are paid employees. They have a list of things you need to fill out and agree to before dropping your child off. The woman in charge was very much shaken but, I still wonder how many times this has really happened.

I am re-thinking this whole over 40 toddler parenting and I think I want a little time to think this over

Wow been a while...

It has been a little longer than I thought.

Just been busy busy. C's car has been in the shop since Dec because of a antifreeze link. They finally pulled it in to actually diagnose the problem about 10 days ago and told us it needed some new gaskets. Me thinking it would cost mroe to get her into a different car ok'd the repair. Went to get it just the otehr day and it runs HORRIBLE> I mean it barely starts and will only go about 20 mph and has a horrible noise. I made her leave it there. I think after paying over 700.00 for a repair that it should at least run as well as it did when I dropped it off.. So anyway, I have been having to pick her up from work each evening. I was driving them to school, going in and picking up T at 2:30 and tehn back again to pick up C at 8. Luckily R has been heading into work early enough to take them lately as well as pick T up from school. In the beginning I was spending hours a day in the car and almost 200 miles aday on my car. I am down to only and hour aday now but I need them to get her car fixed.

I ave been so lazy I have done much else besides The regular housework. Uggh. We are trying to potty train now so that is another interesting thing and our once 20 lb puppy is now a 70 lb 5 month old puppy! Yikes. We are seriously working on some training with her.

Had another yucky storm move in and hte kids were released from school early. Was a total mess since T cant ride the bus he was stuck in town til dad could get him on his lunch break and C had to work at 5 and had really nowhere to go so she went to work early. I knew if the buses couldnt make it I definately couldnt.

I am hoping to get a little more done this week and have several projects up my sleeve.

I did get my craft room cleaned out after the Christmas mess! I need to contact the trash people to bring us an extra can as I am trying to squeeze all of this in a weeks worth of a can and it is not fitting!

I bought another Older Bernina today. It had some feet with it and some bobins. It looks like new but they didnt have a pedal for it , the cord is there but no pedal. They had it marked 2.00 for parts but I think it is just because they couldnt test it without a pedal. I am going to try the one from my other BErnina. This one isnt as fancy as the 830 I have but would be great to jsut pull out for some simple stitchin. Even if it doesnt work the cord and feet are worth 2.00!I also bought some little Wilton mini tube cake pans for .50 and get this... We had new windows put in over hte summer, Well theya re a different size as we had them custom made for our house adn the size that fit best. I went to lowes the other day to look at window coverings. We have curtains now but there are times when we need a little more coverage as the sun shining off of the snow just glares in and if you are sitting in the living room you can barely see. I thought about wooden blinds but to have them custom made jsut for the 1 window was more than I wanted to spend since I get bore quickly. I saw some nice woodenflat fold blinds and was really set on buying them. I went to the thrift today and guess what I found.  Hunter Douglas wooden blinds in oak with a 2.00 price tag on them and they are the EXACT size of my window. Crazy! Jus need to go but the brackets but I seen those too at Lowes. Super stoked. Pictures as soon as I get them up. So enough babbling but really have a ton of things I am doing but never finish much!

WE NEED TO LOSE SOME FAT!

     this is my son helping his grandma open her birthday                                           Here is the whole 15year old cuteness of him
        Below is me on the right with eyes closed but not asleep and my daughter who is asleep
                                          taylor below blowing out is 15 candles
                  And wearing his turkey hat that is little sister made for him as a present in school

Our family is getting fatter by the day. My main concernis my 15 year old. He is over weight severe. He has stated asking me to look up things to where he can lose lots of wieght in 4 weeks etc, I know it bothers him he is a big boy . I am a plump mama,my 10 year old daughter is 90 some pounds and she is concerned so we are taking this weekend to think up an eating style and put it into action after tomorrow. If there were more we could actually do some real cool stuff . Like weekly weigh inns and to the male or female who have lost the most  we all send them some small item of your choice.

All you would have to do is take a picture of your weight on the scale and we would go from there.after week 1 we will have a winner adn all involved send this person a small giftieIt will be fun es[ecially for my younger one something to get him involved with something shoot me your ideas how we can make this work  So bring on some ideass we are ready to get busy